Yesterday, my daughter Kirsten met me at the Denver airport, and a we were able to spend the
day together. She and her boyfriend had recently decided to tie the knot, and yesterday they asked me to officiate. I said I’d be honored to do so, as long as I was
still alive. The wedding is planned for next September, but 10 months is on the
long end of a worst-case scenario of my metastatic cancer going full-tilt and
nothing succeeding in slowing it down. It may seem strange to those who have
not lived with an uncurable metastatic cancer, but my family is comfortable
with talking candidly about the elephant in the room. Plus, it makes for great
opportunities for some dark humor.
We arrived
at the Kaiser Lonetree facility, checked in and were sent upstairs for a glucose
test. But when my number was called, the tech told me that my scan had been
cancelled because the machine was broken. But it was working when they checked
me in, I said. Not her problem. Go away. Next! I went back downstairs where
the radiology receptionist confirmed that the machine had once again quit working – apparently
it had been on the fritz for several days. A technician would come out and
discover someone had tripped over the cord and unplugged it or tried to reheat a
leftover turkey sandwich or put another quarter in the slot or whatever. Could
they reschedule me for another day? No, I flew here specifically for this scan
and was flying out tonight. Not her problem. Go away. Next! But I didn’t go away.
I asked her call the other Kaiser facilities in Denver that had PET machines
and see if they could work me in. Instead she gave me the number of her boss,
then got up and walked away.
After
peeling my jaw off the floor, I called the boss and got a generic voice
mail. Halfway through my blunt message it dawned on me that this was probably
not an actual Kaiser employee, but likely an ex-boyfriend of the receptionist.
I ended the message, shoulder surfed into the locked offices behind the receptionist,
walked into the scheduling office, sat down and explained my situation to the
surprised employee. I asked her to call the other Kaiser facilities and get me
worked into their schedule for today. She said she's try and I said I'd sit and wait. Downtown Denver couldn’t do it, but the Lafayette
office north of Denver could get me in at 5 pm. Great, I said. But the
Lafayette office said that I’d have to be there by 4 to get the FDG contrast,
and there wasn’t time since it was an hour’s drive and it was already past 3.
Give me the contrast here I said. She said she couldn’t do that. Call your
pharmacy and ask I said. She called the pharmacy. Yes, they would do it. I asked
her to call the lab and authorize the glucose test, and that I expected
the contrast to be ready when I got back. And it was. Sometimes you just need
to be persistent in your self-advocacy.
Kirsten
drove me up to Lafayette on the north end of Denver, and I was immediately
walked back to the scanner, laid on the table, and nuked. Kirsten and I chatted about
wedding planning as the tech burned two disks with the scan images, then were on
our way. Since I hadn’t eaten at all, Kirsten took me to Brothers barbecue
where we each ordered the two meat platters. There is something about eating
good barbecue with your adult kid that warms the heart. Or maybe it was the
spicy sauce. But having my daughter accompany me for the day made the madness
worthwhile. I flew back to SLC and arrived in Huntsville at 1 am this morning.
After awaking, I emailed my Kaiser oncologist in Virginia about my having the scan, and asked
her to email me the reading once she received it. I also mailed to Dr. Apolo one
of the disks of the scan. I’ve scheduled a meeting with her for December 10.
This
evening, I received a response from my Kaiser doctor. The scan results were unexpected.
The radiologist did not fund any tumor in my lungs (“No
developing pulmonary nodule”).
However, the radiologist did not compare this scan to the October scan that
showed the lung tumor, but instead compared it to my scan in July of this year
that showed no pulmonary tumor, but suggested I’d had a complete response from my outbreak of mets in April. So I’m skeptical. I’ve asked my Virginia-based
Kaiser oncologist to request a reinterpretation, comparing it to the October
scan.
The Colorado
radiologist did find two other suspicious tumors, however: First, a “solitary
enlarged prevascular mediastinal lymph node image 58 measures 1.3 cm with SUV
max of 5.1 compared with 1 cm with SUV max of 3.2 which is suspicious for a
metastasis.” Something is going on there. Second, "12 mm transverse diameter
hypoattenuation right lobe of the thyroid demonstrates low-level metabolic
activity with SUV max of 2.4, unchanged.” My thyroid has been previously examined
and found to be benign, so I’m not too worried about that.
I’ve emailed three of the clinical oncologists who are
following my case (Dr. Ferrera with Kaiser in Northern Virginia, Dr. Apolo with
NIH NCI in Bethesda, and Dr. Hahn with Johns Hopkins in Baltimore), and asked
for their thoughts. The suggestion that my lung tumor has simply disappeared
seems too remarkable to believe, so I’m asking for verification. I’d assumed
that I’d be entering a clinical trial in January, but if the scan reading is
accurate, then perhaps I can postpone that and instead look forward to dancing
with my daughter at her wedding.
Thanks, Cathy. It was good to speak with you. I've deleted your comment with your phone number so scammers don't pick it up and add you to their robo-call list.
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